Lost Soul Meets Death

by deeanelanefeliciano

CODA made by And Maps And Plans

by deeanelanefeliciano

“Do not fall in love with people like me.
I will take you to museums, and parks, and monuments, and kiss you in every beautiful place, so that you can never go back to them without tasting me like blood in your mouth.
I will destroy you in the most beautiful way possible. And when I leave you will finally understand, why storms are named after people.” – Caitlyn Siehl

by deeanelanefeliciano

  • Always take pictures of the sky when it’s pretty, it probably won’t ever look like that again.
  • Wear that skirt you like, even if your mom says it’s too short.
  • Take off the dark eyeliner and nail polish once in a while, you’ll feel lighter.
  • Chop off your hair if you want, it will grow back eventually.
  • Count the freckles on your arms and draw lines between them, your skin is like the night sky.
  • Sleep under six blankets with the fan on high in the middle of the winter, the sound is soothing.
  • Tell that boy to stop touching your thigh, even if it is flattering.
  • Say thank you and flash a smile when your sister says that you’re outfit is ugly.
  • Raise your hand when you know the answer, even if the class is all upperclassmen.
  • Read that book again, you’ll notice something you didn’t the first time.
  • Don’t drink too much caffeine, you’ll get the jitters and bomb your math test.
  • Wear pencils behind your ears, it’s convenient.
  • Try to talk to people, it won’t kill you.
  • When a cute boy tries to cheat off your test, write the wrong answers and change them later.
  • It’s ok to feel happy, don’t let other person’s sadness make you feel bad.

Wistful

by deeanelanefeliciano

There it goes again. That moment when a glimpse of his smile crosses her mind and her bones has lost all its strength. She lit a stick of cigar and relished the bitter taste of smoke in her mouth. She lies alone in bed that summer night, haunted by the songs he sang her. Haunted by how he used to trace her spine with his fingertips. She remembers the disgusting taste of alcohol on his mouth and how she felt with his eyes fixed on her. There was never a ring on her finger. But they both know he doesn’t need a ring to own her heart. He owns her every inch, every strands of her long hair. She was all his. He was never hers.

34 Excuses for Why We Failed at Love

by deeanelanefeliciano

1. I’m lonely so I do lonely things.
2. Loving you was like going to war; I never came back the same.
3. You hate women, just like your father and his father, so it runs in your blood.
4. I was wandering the derelict car park of your heart looking for a ride home.
5. You’re a ghost town I’m too patriotic to leave.
6. I stay because you’re the beginning of the dream I want to remember.
7. I didn’t call him back because he likes his girls voiceless.
8. It’s not that he wants to be a liar; it’s just that he doesn’t know the truth.
9. I couldn’t love you, you were a small war.
10. We covered the smell of loss with jokes.
11. I didn’t want to fail at love like our parents.
12. You made the nomad in me build a house and stay.
13. I’m not a dog.
14. We were trying to prove our blood wrong.
15. I was still lonely so I did even lonelier things.
16. Yes, I’m insecure, but so was my mother and her mother.
17. No, he loves me he just makes me cry a lot.
18. He knows all of my secrets and still wants to kiss me.
19. You were too cruel to love for a long time.
20. It just didn’t work out.
21. My dad walked out one afternoon and never came back.
22. I can’t sleep because I can still taste him in my mouth.
23. I cut him out at the root, he was my favorite tree, rotting, threatening the foundations of my home.
24. The women in my family die waiting.
25. Because I didn’t want to die waiting for you.
26. I had to leave, I felt lonely when he held me.
27. You’re the song I rewind until I know all the words and I feel sick.
28. He sent me a text that said “I love you so bad.”
29. His heart wasn’t as beautiful as his smile
30. We emotionally manipulated one another until we thought it was love.
31. Forgive me, I was lonely so I chose you.
32. I’m a lover without a lover.
33. I’m lovely and lonely.
34. I belong deeply to myself. 

By: Warsan Shire

Appreciation Post: Signal Fire – Snow Patrol

by deeanelanefeliciano

He was the cutest spider.

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